It has been an epic amount of time since I've done a post like this but I felt it was time and I'm presenting one of my favorite movies of all time, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. I actually went to the movie theater by myself and saw this movie when it came out, I knew nothing about it and I'm pretty sure I was nursing a broken heart at the time. This was one of the movies I skipped out of classes to see a matinee for (how can you beat those matinee prices and the lack of crowds?) I'm not much of a crier at the movies but if I was this one probably would have made me do it. Now I own the movie, the blu-ray, and the soundtrack. I also regularly search for anything related to the movie on etsy and ebay. For those of you who haven't seen it, SEE IT! But for those of you unlucky souls (just kidding but this movie is a serious masterpiece in my humble opinion) who haven't seen it, there is always time, want to come over and watch it? I have some kettle corn! Here is a brief synopsis (taken directly from imdb): A couple undergo a procedure to erase each other from their memories when their relationship turns sour, but it is only through the process of loss that they discover what they had to begin with.


I don't think I could have enough praise in the world for this movie, it is wonderfully acted, written, directed, styled... just everything about it I love. But in this post I will be focusing on the style of the main female character, Clementine Kruczynski (whose last name I always have to google) played by the amazing and beautiful Kate Winslet (have I mentioned I've wanted to be her since I was a little girl?). She plays a very free spirited character with a very bright and unique sense of style and personality. She is eclectic and complicated but very interesting.


Onto the outfits I conjured up. First with the inspiration outfit:



My take on it:



Inspiration outfit 2:


My take on it:



Last but not least, inspiration outfit 3:


My take on it (and a few other outfits sprinkled throughout the movie):



Clementine seems like the type of person who would heavily thrift shop, maybe perhaps even knit her own scarves and stuff, who would love vintage, etsy, small shops and boutiques. The type of person who would definitely have a flair for combining textures, patterns, and colors. How do you think I did? Have you seen the movie? Did you like the movie? What movie should I do next?

I know I've stressed this already but this is the type of movie that is best seen more than once, it is jam packed full of amazing details. Happy movie viewing!

I'm not 100% sure where my surge of self-confidence has come from but I like it, I like it a lot. So yes, another OOTD, still a mirror shot and still not full body (or in focus or of good quality... but yah, small steps). 

Jason and I went to the Alamo Drafthouse (thank goodness for groupons), shared a bacon (well I didn't share the bacon ^_^) cheeseburger, drank way too many sodas, and saw Gone Girl. I loved the movie, I have to read the book now! I'm a big fan of David Fincher's movies.




I was so exhausted when I took these two outfit pictures that I barely cared if they were in focus, I just wanted to throw off my bra and put on my pajamas. Anywho, onto the dets:

Here it is, a Halloween post! Even if no one else gets excited about this post, I'm excited about it and that is good enough for meeee. Plus, it gives me an excuse to say "ween". Hehehehe, I said ween. Three times. Ween. Okay, four times.

My bank account which I must say isn't frequently used and doesn't often have very much in the form of money in it still alerts me almost the entire month of October with "warning, you tend to spend a lot in this time period". If my bank account could hear me I'd say "Duh, I need me all the Halloween shtuff". Well, enough about my consistent money troubles, look at my stufffffffffff:



The measuring spoons and wind chime are from World Market. I believe we bought the skull from World Market also but I can't quite recall probably because there was some sick woman in the store when we were buying these things whose germy-not-covered-coughs got me extremely sick for two weeks. I still have to take an antibotic that makes my tummy not happy, so I'm very thankful to that woman. She clearly had some very important and impertinent reasons to be in World Market in her condition. Sorry, that got ranty but I felt like poo for weeks. Oh, and Predator is Funko (obvi) and we bought it from a random comic book shop in our area.


Casta Fierce from Toys R' Us or otherwise known as my second home. Another appearance from the skull! Towels and tablecloth (I seriously couldn't remember what this table covering thing was called haha, I had to get up and look at the packaging) are from Target. Snowglobes (have I ever mentioned that I have a weakness for snowglobes?) are from Walgreens. Walgreens also has some really tasty Russell Stover "pumpkin" shaped filled chocolates. They are rarely actually pumpkin shaped but they are delicious, try the raspberry cream, orange cream, and red velvet.

I thought I had more things but these are the only things I took pictures of. I did also buy some syringe pens from Target but they are more cute than practical, one broke the minute I took it out of the packaging but it seemed to be easily fixable.

What have you bought this HalloWEEN (hehe, I just can't get enough ... depeche mode) season?

As most of you know, I have been blogging for awhile and have never posted an OOTD of the day picture. I've come close once but this time I'm going to take the leap and try it. It's still not a full body shot, baby steps!!, but it is a huge step for me. Despite following almost exclusively all fashion bloggers I felt too shy and scared to take the leap to sharing pictures of my body but I'm sick of being scared. My weight has always been a sore spot for me but honestly I'm not ashamed anymore.

I'm fat, not the fattest I've ever been (that was a bit ago, have lost 25.3lbs since then) and I've been smaller too (at my smallest I wore a size 10/12). I have cellulite, acne scars, very large boobs, a tummy, large arms, and very pale skin but I think I'm beautiful. I'm far from my ideal but if I stay this size for the rest of my life it won't be the worst thing in the world. Life is too short to hate yourself and to be harsh to other people. I joke a lot (defense mechanism on top of a genuine love of laughter and a want to make other people laugh) but I try not to be insulting to people. 

I have been all sizes of average, chubby, and fat and people will judge you no matter what size you are so fuck it, love yourself. Be around people who don't hurt you and who don't make you feel shitty about yourself. Never stop improving and don't be afraid to speak up when someone says something hurtful to you. I will never be a size 4 and I honestly don't want to be, I don't think there is a single thing in the world wrong with being a size 4 but I do think it is wrong to tell other people what their body should and should not look like! 

I have been counting my calories for a total of 532 days and I rarely overeat (do I sometimes? yes. We all do. Food is good). I feel pretty good when I exercise and want to do it more often but I don't feel like I deserve to not be treated fairly because I'm not thin, or don't always eat what people think I should, or active enough according to society. I'm human, I'm fat, and I'm fucking beautiful. If you don't agree, that is your opinion and I don't want it. I don't need it. I just had a full physical and I could use some improvements but overall I'm in good health so don't even start on that.

I was a size 14/16 all throughout high school and I was a mess, I had my insecure days and my days of confidence. People told me sometimes that I was fat/big/ugly and sometimes that I was attractive. I was desperate for validation, I wanted love so badly and I let people mistreat me over and over again because I thought I couldn't do any better. People also do and say things without thinking sometimes, people don't always intend to be hurtful but you shouldn't ever feel like you deserve it. Take no shit but be nice whenever possible. That is what I try to live by. Ideally I would like to be a size 14/16 again, a size 10/12 would be my dream size but I'm not certain I want to do all the work to get to that size (I'm just being honest).

Here is my OOTD (not the greatest photo but be patient with me) even though I was just playing dress up, I'm actually in my pajamas.

Welcome folks to another round of current posts. Yay. I said I was going to make a Halloween appreciation post but I think I might just sprinkle some of my Halloween love into this cauldron of a post. Look at that witchy talk. Oh noez, burn her, except don't because very few suspected witches were actually burnt at the stake. ANYWAY.... 



Fuck lighting and it's fickleness.

Current mood: Energetic, bouncy, hyper, limited attention span, constantly rambling, scrambled, cursing often, and the teensiest bit frustrated (of which I'm sure I'll mention somewhere below... don't get too excited to read it).

Current food: Boiled red potatoes with marscapone cheese, swiss cheese, parmesan cheese, and ham. Yes, it was as awesome as it sounds. Things with multiple amounts of cheese typically are, just saying. You know, I once read a rant someone made about saying that "just saying" always followed a insult and I don't get it, that's not how I use it. I try really hard not to use insults but I don't always succeed.


Current drink: Blackberry pomegranate tea. This stuff is the shit, like as in good shit, as in yum-yum shit. You didn't know yum-yum shit existed did you? WELL, I'm here to teach (< ahah...no you're not). 


Current TV show: The Walking Dead, how fucking epic was last night's episode? Blasting fire zombie epic. No spoilers. Good Eats (ALTON BROWNNNNN). The Knick. The Knick is my jam (what... Rachel...). I literally put on a few of the episodes on repeat while I was simming the other day. 

Current outfit: Very stylish pink and black pajama bottoms with heart and lion motif, oversized white tee from Target (I live in these freakin' tees even though they hold in smells like no other... I hate when fabrics do that), and more stylish moments in the form of man slippers. Also my bra is pretty visible so Lane Bryant black lace and leopard print bra. I'm also sporting a "funky fresh" hairdo with two braids and one very large strand of hair sticking out because I rule at hair. I'm also cuddling with my kitty Hero so let's include his outfit... black cat... suit. 

Current frustration: All funky freshed hairdo'ed and nowhere to go. Literally can't go anywhere because my dude had to take my car to work because his truck is being a pain in the living ass. Also, two flies that made their way into the house and WILL NOT LEAVE. We did have three unwanted houseguests but I killed one by throwing an oversized cup at it, yep, I'm talented. I'm still talking flies, just to be clear I don't kill my house guests... at least not yet *sinister look*. I'm also really broke so that kinda sucks. 

Current bane of my existence: See above... I also keep chewing on my pinky finger and I have no idea why I do it. Why? Why you do it? (No idea *continues*). I also wish I was spending today with friends in a movie theater in between hyperness but alas it's Monday and I have no money.



Current crush: Audrey Horne aka Sherilynn Fenn, then and NOW. She is of the gorgeous variety.


Current need: Dance Night. I want to wear one of my pretty party dresses and dance until my knees hurt (which isn't long because mama is out of shape) and probably some adderall because man', hyperness is out of control today. I might need to pretend I'm a 3 year old and wear myself out by running around the house. 

Current link: Viking Treasure Hoard

My talking runneth over so I guess I will do a Halloween purchases post after all.

Current triumph: I created an email for you to keep in touch with me at, whether it is blog related or not, please email me and send me your phone numbers (I don't chat on the phone very often but I do like to text). Link is HERE. STILL HERE. Talk to me. Cheese.