In my last posts I talked a bit about my managed calorie diet and exercise plan I've been on and I must say, this last week and half has been ROUGH. I get really frustrated feeling like I have to spend my entire day logging my meals, planning my meals, preparing my meals, getting up the energy to exercise, and then exercising. This is not to say I don't feel better when I have a good day where I exercise the amount I'm suppose to or eat only good things but I wish I didn't have to dedicate so much time and energy to it. Isn't there another way, why does it feel like it has to either be something you don't think about or something you spend all your time thinking about? Granted I mostly eat at home and I mostly cook or prepare things that are easy to prepare or take 45 minutes at best. I work out between 25 minutes to an hour or more (depending on the day) but it still feels like my food and exercise plan eats up my entire day. How does this happen?

Granted, I am a person who is focused on food, I love food... I'm not ashamed to admit that I think eating good food (unhealthy or healthy because tasty food can fit into either category) is one of the best parts of life. I've met people who approached food as more of a necessity than a "YAY, nom time" but I don't understand those people. Sometimes I have days where nothing sounds good and other days every single thing sounds good. Well this week peanut m&m's sounded good, chocolate chip cookies sounded good, cheese sounded good, blue raspberry icee sounded good, and not drinking 8 glasses of water sounded good. To be fair most weeks all of those things sound good but this week it was really hard for me to drown out the little craving voices in my head. I'm not a huge water fan but I admit it does wonders for my skin and makes me feel pretty healthy and spritely but it also makes me run to the bathroom to an excess including waking me at least twice a night. It also feels like a chore caring around a water bottle everywhere I go and making sure I have enough ice and blah, blah, blah. I know one bad week does not ruin a long term goal but I'm honestly not very good at sticking at long term goals, I hate that I struggle with reaching long term goals to the extent that I do but admitting to something is a good step I suppose?

I don't know. Today has been a better day (so far) even though I've had a soda but I don't think it would be realistic for me to cut out coca-cola cold turkey. I really detest diets that totally eliminate all of the "bad" things because it is not realistic. I have to wonder though, am I doing something wrong or am I just having a bad week? Hell, if it was easy everyone would do it, right?

Well, I have to go fill my water bottle and I can barely hold back my excitement for my weight lifting, treadmill using, and wii fitness doing I have planned for later today....

One last thing before I go, does anyone else find that the time using a treadmill/elliptical goes by at a ridiculously slow pace? I can turn on music, put on tv, or watch a movie while walking on my treadmill and I still find myself glancing down at the time finding that only seconds have gone by. Why does it go by so freakin' slow? It is honestly a minor miracle when I use one of these machines longer than 30 minutes because I find it so freakin tedious. Perhaps I should put tape over the time while I use the machine?

Please tell me I am not alone in feeling this way....