I don't know if you are all aware but 'Almost Famous' is one of my favorite movies of all time. I can't pull off boho looks much and the 1970's in general were not a decade I look to for fashion advice but this movie touches me and I actually do like a lot of the looks in it. I do have a thing for turquoise, earthy colors, boots, and 1970's music though. Yes, I need to start taking better pictures.... I know... I know...

I've been sick with bronchitis for what feels like centuries but time goes by slowly when you're sick. Cough syrup has been my best friend these past few weeks, I bought my cough syrup a bff necklace and everything but the little shit refuses to wear it, it says "My neck is too small you weirdo" Liar.

It's safe to say I haven't been out much since I've been sick but I did visit my Dad and his new home last weekend. I was so excited to get out of the house that I wore my red lace eshakti dress for the first time and it got rave reviews. It's not hard to see why below... I love you eshakti.


 I'm feeling better mostly just trying to kick a non-stop cough and some congestion. That and I'm constantly sleepy. My husband and I leave for Vegas in two days! AND I had my hair done yesterday so exciting not talking to my cough syrup (probably... maybe) posts to come!

I wanted to share a picture of one of my current favorite outfits that I wore to a house party of a friend a few weeks ago, this white lace dress is from Alloy and one of my favorites.

What did you get from Christmas, either for yourself or from others?

I'm not 100% sure where my surge of self-confidence has come from but I like it, I like it a lot. So yes, another OOTD, still a mirror shot and still not full body (or in focus or of good quality... but yah, small steps). 

Jason and I went to the Alamo Drafthouse (thank goodness for groupons), shared a bacon (well I didn't share the bacon ^_^) cheeseburger, drank way too many sodas, and saw Gone Girl. I loved the movie, I have to read the book now! I'm a big fan of David Fincher's movies.




I was so exhausted when I took these two outfit pictures that I barely cared if they were in focus, I just wanted to throw off my bra and put on my pajamas. Anywho, onto the dets:

As most of you know, I have been blogging for awhile and have never posted an OOTD of the day picture. I've come close once but this time I'm going to take the leap and try it. It's still not a full body shot, baby steps!!, but it is a huge step for me. Despite following almost exclusively all fashion bloggers I felt too shy and scared to take the leap to sharing pictures of my body but I'm sick of being scared. My weight has always been a sore spot for me but honestly I'm not ashamed anymore.

I'm fat, not the fattest I've ever been (that was a bit ago, have lost 25.3lbs since then) and I've been smaller too (at my smallest I wore a size 10/12). I have cellulite, acne scars, very large boobs, a tummy, large arms, and very pale skin but I think I'm beautiful. I'm far from my ideal but if I stay this size for the rest of my life it won't be the worst thing in the world. Life is too short to hate yourself and to be harsh to other people. I joke a lot (defense mechanism on top of a genuine love of laughter and a want to make other people laugh) but I try not to be insulting to people. 

I have been all sizes of average, chubby, and fat and people will judge you no matter what size you are so fuck it, love yourself. Be around people who don't hurt you and who don't make you feel shitty about yourself. Never stop improving and don't be afraid to speak up when someone says something hurtful to you. I will never be a size 4 and I honestly don't want to be, I don't think there is a single thing in the world wrong with being a size 4 but I do think it is wrong to tell other people what their body should and should not look like! 

I have been counting my calories for a total of 532 days and I rarely overeat (do I sometimes? yes. We all do. Food is good). I feel pretty good when I exercise and want to do it more often but I don't feel like I deserve to not be treated fairly because I'm not thin, or don't always eat what people think I should, or active enough according to society. I'm human, I'm fat, and I'm fucking beautiful. If you don't agree, that is your opinion and I don't want it. I don't need it. I just had a full physical and I could use some improvements but overall I'm in good health so don't even start on that.

I was a size 14/16 all throughout high school and I was a mess, I had my insecure days and my days of confidence. People told me sometimes that I was fat/big/ugly and sometimes that I was attractive. I was desperate for validation, I wanted love so badly and I let people mistreat me over and over again because I thought I couldn't do any better. People also do and say things without thinking sometimes, people don't always intend to be hurtful but you shouldn't ever feel like you deserve it. Take no shit but be nice whenever possible. That is what I try to live by. Ideally I would like to be a size 14/16 again, a size 10/12 would be my dream size but I'm not certain I want to do all the work to get to that size (I'm just being honest).

Here is my OOTD (not the greatest photo but be patient with me) even though I was just playing dress up, I'm actually in my pajamas.