Thursday, May 21, 2015

It is incredible how we have all been taught to see someone's physical appearance as a direct indication of their worth, value, and representation of their character. How attractive you are or aren't according to society can totally change the behavior of the people around you. What does it really matter? What does it truly indicate about who someone really is. Yes, I experience physical attraction like everyone else. Everybody does. Humans of course have their natural instincts. Being born appearing one way versus the other should not directly influence your path in life or acceptability in society. 

I know I'm lucky to have been born with certain physical attributes, some of which I can help and others I cannot. Of course there is plastic surgery and cosmetics and all sorts of things that can be used to enhance or alter your appearance but if society did not put such a vast importance on these things to the extent that they do imagine how different things would be? 
I'm sick of spending so much time and energy focused and worried on what I look like. I'm bored out of my mind of living within a society obsessed with the surface of things. Beauty has many forms but so does so many other things in the world. 

I'm fed up with feeling uncomfortable with my body because I've been taught, as we all generally have, to see our physical "flaws" (who really made these rules about what is or isn't a "flaw"??) as something that should constantly be stewed over, attempted to change, etc, whatever. 
I'm sick of hiding my cellulite on my body even when I'm sweating buckets or plain don't want to. I'm sick of society telling women they should or shouldn't wear makeup. Who should not wear that or who should wear this. I'm sick of society telling men they should be or should not be tall. I'm sick of society force feeding us that hair belongs only in certain places. I'm sick of accepting a society that tells people they are only one thing. No one is only one thing. Dig deeper!

Get to know people for who they are and not just what they are. Accept and love yourself. Treat others with kindness. Work together as much as you can, stop squabbling over petty things.
Let's get shit done and stop thinking only with our eyes and nether regions. There is so much more out there! 

Take my double chin and large arms or not, in this moment I don't care. I know I have and others have said this all before but the conversation is going to continue when the issues are so prevalent and consistent.

Saturday, May 9, 2015
It has only taken... 5 years but I'm at 50,000 views! I'm sure at least 25-45% of that is me but we'll pretend it's from my gaggle of admirers. Yay. Woo. Party on. I'm honestly not very concerned with having a blog viewed by millions, a select few is good for me. I'm happy to get to 50,000 views!

I'm in a good mood today because I started off my (late but I was up till 5:00AM) day with a dark chocolate bar. If only every single day started off with chocolate. Also someone vacuumed my patio room (by someone I mean my father in law but ya know, "someone" sounds more mysterious) so that made me happy. I have an odd dinner slow cooking in the crock pot, I just tend to throw stuff together and see how it turns out (usually pretty good).

To celebrate, C-E-L-E-B-R-A-T-E good times and 50,000 views here are a few of my favorite images found on tumblr. Thank you for the support, kindness, and comments. Now people find me some dark mustardy colored clothing to pair with my red hair <3 NO I don't mean cover my clothes in mustard, I don't like mustard, I'll gag.

Thursday, April 30, 2015

I am back from Vegas and yesterday was my 30th birthday. I always feel a little melancholy after vacation and also around my birthday so I have to admit, yesterday and the day before were a bit tough. Lots of junk food and quite a few tears. I'm doing better today though, just trying to fight the urge to take a nap. That time difference and the fact that Vegas operates wayy later than most cities has left my husband and I really tired - and the walking! We did so much m effin' walking, I literally broke a record on moves and my phone did not work in half of the casinos and my husband and I were lost in many a casino. All the casinos/hotels were massive and a bit confusing, especially with some margarita in your system - my husband tried to go out a fire exit about 3 times. What gets me about it too is when I was like "you can't go out the fire exit?" he was like "but it's an exit". Someone wanted to get arrested in Vegas... that someone was not me. 

We went to Freemont St, saw some exhibits at the Luxor, went to the Shark Reef at the Mandalay Bay, saw the fountain, picked up the pace when a homeless man started yelling at "Terry" in his book bag, saw the volcano at the Mirage, saw many a sky jumper at the Stratosphere, and spent the majority of our money on alcohol and drinks (fridges, Vegas, fridges!).

To round off this post, here is a few pictures of my drunk ass at the Venetian waiting for my husband to get out of the bathroom.

Why couldn't I have gone towards the gondolas and took a picture? Well... there were people there and I was drunk and didn't want to make that second face in front of them. 

Thursday, April 16, 2015
I've been sick with bronchitis for what feels like centuries but time goes by slowly when you're sick. Cough syrup has been my best friend these past few weeks, I bought my cough syrup a bff necklace and everything but the little shit refuses to wear it, it says "My neck is too small you weirdo" Liar.

It's safe to say I haven't been out much since I've been sick but I did visit my Dad and his new home last weekend. I was so excited to get out of the house that I wore my red lace eshakti dress for the first time and it got rave reviews. It's not hard to see why below... I love you eshakti.

 I'm feeling better mostly just trying to kick a non-stop cough and some congestion. That and I'm constantly sleepy. My husband and I leave for Vegas in two days! AND I had my hair done yesterday so exciting not talking to my cough syrup (probably... maybe) posts to come!

Friday, April 3, 2015

I've been toying with doing a movie inspiration post for this movie for the longest time because it is one of my favorite movies of all time (yes, I have many but still, this is a contender). The only thing is the movie I'm referring to, Heathers, was done in the 1980s (specifically 1988) so the hair is big, the shoulder pads are popping, and the scrunchies are ...scrunchy. I don't really care for big hair or shoulder pads, that sort of 1980's look I don't fancy much and it doesn't really translate to modern looks although a lot of the things they wore could easily be worn today - I mean tights, blazers, skirts... those things are in many a wardrobe. 

If you haven't seen Heathers... look it up, watch it! (I'm pretty certain it is on instant viewing on a few sites including netflix). Basically there is a girl named Veronica (played by Winona Ryder) who is in a popular clique of girls in school all named Heather. She doesn't care for her friends much and meets a cute boy named J.D (Christian Slater) who convinces her to "prank" some of the popular kids by murdering them. So yeah, it's dark, it's easy to relate to, it's full of quotes, and it is surprisingly funny.

I decided to stick with the primary color scheme the girls wore in the movie and here we go.

Red: Heather Chandler (played by Kim Walker)

Quote: Dear Diary: Heather told me she teaches people "real life." She said, real life sucks losers dry. You want to fuck with the eagles, you have to learn to fly. I said, so, you teach people how to spread their wings and fly? She said, yes. I said, you're beautiful. 

She's a beautiful dictator and this is how I would see her dressing today:

Movie Inspiration: Heathers - Red (Chandler)

It's a bit vampy but I can't help myself. Red and black always seems to translate to "vamp" to me but I loove red and black so *shrugs*. 

Green: Heather Duke (played by Shannen Doherty)

Quote: "I prayed for the death of Heather Chandler many times and I felt bad everytime I did it but I kept doing it anyway. Now I know you understood everything. Praise Jesus, Hallelujah"

She wants to be the leader but secretly hates the leader. 

Movie Inspiration: Heathers - Green (Duke)

Yellow: Heather McNamara (played by Lisanne Falk)

Quote: Veronica Sawyer: "If everyone jumped off a bridge, would you?"
            Heather McNamara the Cheerleader: "Probably."

The follower.

Movie Inspiration: Heathers - Yellow

Blue: Veronica Sawyer (played by Winona Ryder)

Quote: "This isn't just a spoke in my menstrual cycle" 

She has seen the reality of life within the popular clique and wants out but doesn't know how to get out. 

Movie Inspiration: Heathers - Veronica (Blue)

Movie Inspiration: Heathers - Veronica (Blue) by honeysuckelle featuring evening pumps

I'm not 100% satisfied but what do you think?

For further reading, read this Deeper Analysis of Heathers.

Monday, March 30, 2015

I figured I'd try something new, see how it goes. 

TV Shows
1. Modern Family 
My husband and I just started watching this and it is really funny. 

2. Mad Men 
I'm sad it's almost over but excited for it to come back.

3. Peaky Blinders
Admittedly I haven't watched much of this yet but I'm liking what I've seen and that opening theme is so cool.

4. Face Off

5. The Walking Dead
 It's been a roller coaster and I've been skipping episodes because I can't handle the sadness.

1. Eye scarves from ebay. Of course I wore this that one night and spilled meatball on it... I also got this same scarf in a yellow but it came with an odd scent? So weird right...

2. Bettie Page Heels. I hope to crikey these are comfortable or else. 

3. Black and White Dress bought off Zulily. Can't wait for this one to come!

4. Woven Bowl bought at Costco, made by

5. Encyclopedia of Animals (bought at McKays).


Only two but it's what I'm craving constantly.

And Easter Basket Cakes by Little Debbie. I blame my husband, he bought them randomly and I got addicted. Obviously I've been having a tough time sticking to my calorie limits with two such wholesome food addictions :\


1. Slug - Trust
2. Black No 1 - Type O Negative
3. Five Seconds - Twin Shadow
4. The Tinderbox (of a heart) - Cocteau Twins
5. In the Gold Dust Rush - Cocteau Twins

1. Zulily (duh)
2. The Sims Resource (I've been playing The Sims 3 a lot as of late)
3. Apartment Therapy (always)
4. Mars Attacks Kreepsville 666
5. 10 Abandoned Buildings in Virginia 


1. Lush bubble bar 
2. Lush bath bombs
3. Bathtub caddy

Clearly I'm into baths lately.

4. New laptop and new gps.
5. Florence and the Machine Concert Tickets!

Last Watched Movies

1. It Follows
I'm sort of on the fence about the movie, need to see it again to make a clear decision. 

2. Wolf of Wall Street
It's a bit ridiculous how many times I've watched it in the past few weeks considering how long the movie is.

3. Tammy 
"Muscle shirts are for muscles"

4. Jinx (The Robert Durst Docu)
How nutso is that dude?

5. *The Book of Life
I haven't watched this yet despite buying it weeks ago, this is more so a reminder to watch this!

2. San Diego!
Did you know you can only see the snow leopards at the San Diego Zoo if you buy a $100 pass (per person) so :( I probably won't get to see some snow leopards.

3. Birthday 

4. Hair? 
I want to change up my hair a bit but I'm not sure how. I like the length (although I need a trim) but I want something a little different but not too different. Any suggestions?

5. Concerts!

Sunday, March 15, 2015
Since my last post was a pretty dull day, I figured I should showcase another day that is slightly less boring. With such an amazing write up like that I don't know how you would not want to continue but again, onto the show.

I wake up at 5:30am which is highly unusual for me but decide to take a bath with some lush. The comforter bubble bar to be specific. Husband leaves for work around 6ish.

I get out and have a light breakfast of toast and applesauce, take my meds, and put on my makeup.

This galaxy palette by BHcosmetics is one of my favorites, it's so pretty I am almost scared to use it. I will have to buy another one just as a back up. I wore comet and mercury.

Get dressed as a picnic table, I ADORE this dress and am really into gingham and plaid prints lately. I'm also wearing green tights from We Love Colors and almost everything else is from zulily. The one thing that irritates me is the dress is so low cut and my boobs are so ample that I have to wear a top over it. I actually called this look 'Rancid Picnic Dreams' because of the green/plaid combination.

Take a few selfies, browse the internet, apply to some jobs, cuddle with cats, and wait for Goodwill to open. My plan is to find some baskets so I can organize my spice cabinet.

Attempt to curl my hair. Clearly I'm awesome at it....

Head out to Goodwill. It is raining and they are short on baskets, I do however find a few things. None of which I set out to buy but ya know how it is.

I found some cute stuff, I adore this blazer even if it does not fit around my bust. I also found a cute anchor print skort. Yes, skort, they still make them. An old friend calls me as I'm about to check out so I quickly checkout and head home to call him back.

I catch up with my friend on the phone, have a small lunch of cheese grits, and decide to take a nap. The nap isn't working out so well so I decide to take a silly picture. Browse the internet and then finally get around to taking that nap.

Nap longer than expected  (about three hours) and husband is home and lays with me for a bit. Then we decide to order dinner, watch tv for a few hours, talk more about Vegas vacation. Then back to bed it is for the night.

I kind of spaced on the pictures after my husband came home. That was my day. Slightly more exciting I suppose, I mean I went somewhere?


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