Friday, January 30, 2015
It's been awhile since I've posted pictures around my house. It's really coming together, I'm actually having a hard time restraining myself when I see something I like, I fear my place is beginning to become a bit cluttered. It's hard because I like so many different things. My most recent purchases for the house have been bedding and dining room chairs. I'm still on the search for two more dining room chairs, a bed frame, a new coffee table (my cats always fight over the one we have now and I'm sick of yelling "I'll turn this coffee table around!" because it never seems to get the desired effect), an end table for my Monkey that fits in our bedroom and fits his sleep pap (one of the best inventions known to man!), and some things for storage for our display room and around the house. 

Well, onto the tour:

As most of you probably know, we rent our house so we can't do a lot of things to it that I'd like to do if I owned the place (no paint, no replacing cabinets or flooring, changing out brass fixtures, etc) but we have a lot of little touches about that show our sense of style.These spider lights and curtains were not put up for Halloween, everyday is Halloween in this home. This curtain is one of my favorite things in the world by the way. I hate the flooring and the lack of storage in my kitchen but I do love the window behind the sink.

Next onto the dining room:

As you can tell, we like skull print in this house. I honestly feel like the dining room has become a bit heavy with stuff, I'm sure you'd agree. It's just hard, I find so many lovely things I don't intend on keeping, I plan on selling in my ebay store or giving to friends but then I become attached to them (the cat figurines for instance) and I don't want to part with them.

Two of my favorite things about this house are the hardwood floors throughout and the two story brick fireplace that goes into the basement as well.

This post is already getting very image heavy so I think I'll close with a picture of my new bedding that I just love to pieces. If anyone is interested I think I'll do a part two? Hell, if no one is interested I still will probably do a part two. 

Thursday, January 29, 2015
Will this really be my first current post of 2015? Not to mention my first current post in awhile. I'm slacking but it tis my way *does a little jig* although honestly, lately I haven't been feeling like much of a slacker since I seem to be on the go all the time lately. Walk, work, walk, clean, clean, lift, lift, work, errands, errands, chocolate, chocolate, kitties, barking dogs, naps, naps, driving, driving, singing songs to myself, etc. That is my life summed up pretty well.

Current mood: Can't sit still but also tired. I spent most of the morning and some of last evening cleaning. I can get a bit obsessive about it actually. I have to work tomorrow so I'm trying to enjoy my evening relaxing and Halo just climbed up on the desk so sounds like a plan.

 Current cuddle partner: The Halo... but of course.

Last purchase: Brown leather boots from Lane Bryant. On clearance and I could not pass them up.

Also a black floppy hat off ebay, I have my hair in one messy ass bun so I haven't tried it on yet. I also got some new bedding that I'll show off in another post I have planned.

Current site I'm addicted to: The usual suspects but also Zulily. It's insane how much time and money I've spent on here already. I love it, gimme everything.

Current crush: Natalie Dormer. Seriously, she is just luminous. 

Current tv show: The Fall second season. Face Off. Shameless. Review. My husband and I were quoting Review to one another for days straight. Such a funny show, you should watch it.

Current food: These little cakes from Trader Joes. I should stop.... *shoves another in mouth* Have you tried the mini pies? My god, I love them.

Current drink: Lavender tea.

Current bane of my existence: Snow. I HATE IT.

Current frustration: Winter. Snow. Slowness (me, I'm slow).

Current triumph: I walked almost 8 miles the other day at work. I was quite exhausted admittedly but I'm getting more and more miles in... think of me as an old car you bought off craigslist, actually don't... that's not a flattering comparison.

Current outfit: As usual I'm wearing my pajamas but how about I talk about my last two cute outfits.

Outfit 1: Zulily striped cardigan sz 2X, Thrifted white tee in size L, Thrifted floral print navy and white skirt size 24 (fits a bit odd), We Love Colors tights (THE BEST) in olive size E, brown boots from Lane Bryant sz 10.

Outfit 2: Old Navy hooded cardigan sz XL, Forever 21 black jeans sz 20, black lace bra from Lane Bryant online, thrifted pink tank top, turquoise rosary necklace from ebay, brown boots from Lane Bryant.

Current wishlist: Eloqui Tartan Print Midi Skirt / Mesh Panel Black Shift Dress from Zulily / Black Sheer Pin Point Top / Scoop Neck Sheer Tunic / Domino Dollhouse Spiked Floppy Hat / Old Navy Sweater Hoodie (for work and comfort) / O' Keeffe's Working Hands Cream (my job destroys my poor hands) / Free People Natural Stone Earrings / Modcloth UFO Ballet Flats / Pomegranate Tool

Current need: A bath.

Friday, January 23, 2015
When I was younger and first starting to grow into my lady business (boobs, hips, butt, all those sort of thangs) I was really uncomfortable with it. I honestly felt like a freak for having such large boobs and hips, I'm not actually sure what bra size I wore back then because I without a doubt wore the wrong sizes. I forced myself into sizes that were too small because I didn't want to accept how large my boobs were. Not only did I feel like a freak for being "shapely" I felt masculine for being tall and large. I wore all baggy clothing for years, I was so uncomfortable showing off my freakish curves. Most of the popular girls in school or the images of women in the media that were seen as "beautiful" were tiny/small/petite/athletic/tan. I was none of those things. The popular girls were between a size 0-4. I was already a size 10. I hated my body, I hated when people commented on my boobs or my "hourglass shape" because in my mind they were just nicely saying I was fat. I would get remarks from adults like "you should embrace your hourglass shape, men love it and most people would kill for that shape" but it didn't seem that way to me! It didn't seem that way in the real world and I was still really young and not comfortable with the attention my curves would get me. As I got a little older I started to embrace it, I wore tight clothing and got looks and remarks and I dug it. I didn't dig people in school telling me "you think you look good, but you are ugly" or "why are you so big?" or "no one wants to see you wearing that" when I was wearing a mini skirt and tight sweater. I wore a size 10/12/14 through all of high school and was called fat and unattractive more times than I can recall by the school bullies. Any self confidence I had in my shape seemed to piss some people off. On the opposite end of the spectrum I was flirted with often by my guy friends or older men but in general I just seemed to scare boys. I really let it get to me but I kept dressing the way I liked, I became a bit obsessed with dressing nicely to be honest. I would spend so much time and money wanting new outfits and wanting to look lovely every day, even if I was cold or uncomfortable. I rarely if ever wore pants, I don't even think I owned a pair of pants for yearrrss. It was all skirts and dresses. I started slowly opening up to wearing pants, buying pants that fit regardless of what the size on the label read, and be comfortable enough to wear comfortable clothing in public without feeling ashamed or gross or what have you. 

Now I think I've found a good balance. I don't always love my body, we all have our good days and bad days. I dress up when I feel like it and dress more casually when I feel like it. I find comfort important and don't think that being comfortable means having to sacrifice "style". I try not to wear revealing clothing in inappropriate places like work but it is a bit hard to hide my curves and cleavage, they kind of show in everything. I'm even comfortable enough to show up to work and go out in public with *gasp* NO MAKEUP.

I still spend a lot of money on clothes, I still really love shopping, I still struggle with loving my body but I think that is a struggle (that last part anyway) that we all have during our lives. I'm more interested in being kind to myself and others, trying to embrace the body I was born with, and always trying to improve.

Saturday, January 10, 2015
And how were the holidays for you my cupcakes? Mine were a bit trying this year I must admit, I had a really bad case of bronchitis and I still have a lingering cough. My husband has been sick for a solid two weeks and work has been absolutely insane for the last few weeks due to the holidays and the weather. Snow, ice, and arctic temperatures do not make for a happy postal worker. I've also had to help out at another station here and there and they have really outdated vehicles and aren't very friendly or understanding so that hasn't been the most fun. How do you deal with co-workers who aren't easy to handle?

My blog has kinda become a ghost town but I'm still here and I actually have money to buy stuff now! So yay. I've been buying stuff mostly for work and also just stuff I've been lusting after. I got a really gorgeous red lace dress from Eshakti recently, some insanely well priced things from Old Navy and Torrid, a white leopard print jacket for ASOS for less than $30!, and some other things that haven't arrived yet. I ordered some new bedding that I'm excited about, I've been wanting to change out my bedding for years. 

Well, my husband and I are going to the Alamo Drafthouse tonight to see The Hobbit and hopefully I'll be able to talk him into letting me order cookies. The good thing about this job is I'm so active all day long that cookies aren't really something I have to "fit in". I gained a bit of weight last year (only about 10lbs) but I've lost it again so I'm back to 35lbs lost so that's good news too. 

I wanted to share a picture of one of my current favorite outfits that I wore to a house party of a friend a few weeks ago, this white lace dress is from Alloy and one of my favorites.

What did you get from Christmas, either for yourself or from others?

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